[That's an...odd way to phrase it. And when they mention Chara's reaction, well...that's mildly disturbing. Chara is digging into Gaster themselves, so why is it bad if Frisk in particular is doing the same? Interesting.]
well jeez. i'm glad you're both okay.
there's probably more to any place than the average person realizes
i was telling chara about some stuff the other day and
["Okay" is kind of optimistic. They're not sure they're ever really "okay". But "okay" doesn't always mean okay so, okay.]
You mean the stuff about how Chara and me aren't constants? We're interchangeable with other versions of ourselves? We're not the only Frisk or the only Chara out there? There's more of us and we're all different in different ways and there's no telling us apart? How there's nothing that makes us special at all compared to others that might be like us?
[Of course they'd tell Frisk. And of course it would still be resonating with both of them. Isn't this exactly how he's been about Papyrus? Thinking of himself as the "wrong Sans" and never bothering to examine the effect that might have on others. On Papyrus, especially. He thinks maybe that whole thing affected Papyrus a lot more than his brother has been letting on.]
I didn't mean it like that either. But they think so little of themself already. That's why they keep running away. They think we're all better off without them.
[Can they blame them, really? Not exactly. Not when they were looking into something so horrifically similar for the "wrong reasons," right?]
I think we might be the only two from the same time. But I guess we're not from your time, are we?
they were asking about how papyrus and i are different and it just sort of came up.
[Just sort of came up. That was his excuse with Max, too. He can't be like this anymore. He feels like he's got a bit of solid ground beneath his feet again, so he has to use that. Has to go back to being more careful. More careful about what he says. Not saying anything.]
[Or...well. That's part of the problem as well. Either way--careful.]
[He doesn't need this right now. This isn't what they even meant to talk to him about. They're not really sure what they meant to talk to him about at all, other than to simply come clean about the fact that they were in his room. Which he probably already knows. Definitely already knew based on the way he responded to them.]
Sorry. I just wanted to let you know. And I'm sorry for us going into your room like that.
haha, kinda? no one ever locks their doors in the underground, that's for sure.
[Except for Sans.]
i dunno, i mean. robberies don't happen all that much, since everyone pretty much knows each other. and if someone's gonna just walk into your house randomly it's usually cause they're a friend, so.
[Monsters are just like that. Inherently good, and kind. And they...
They don't deserve to live among them. Never did. Never should have. But this is exactly what they wanted to erase by talking to him about this. That feeling of not belonging.]
[They smile, an unintentional, startled quirk of the lips. Of course he'd know. He has his way of showing up wherever he's not supposed to be, much in the same manner as a cat.]
Sans?
Would there be a way to keep a picture of us in Wonderland, in the same way you can keep the picture of the people you don't want to forget? So that there's no way for anything to touch it.
Yeah. I'm just tired of losing people. Undyne, and Asriel. I don't want to forget people. I wish I could just keep everything safe, all the memories. So I won't forget. So no one forgets.
I keep trying to remember. It was sort of my responsibility to keep people safe at home. But I can't do that here can I
The response comes in stutters, carefully typed out over a period of about ten to fifteen minutes. Painstaking, slow. Double-checking for errors. Trying to make it...palatable. Acceptable. Not inconvenient.]
It feels like I did in all the worst moments. It feels like I should be able to SAVE them like I SAVED everyone, but I can't. It feels like maybe, if I just tried harder, if I used that power and that determination that made me so special, I would be able to save them.
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Date: 2016-08-30 03:25 am (UTC)[That's an...odd way to phrase it. And when they mention Chara's reaction, well...that's mildly disturbing. Chara is digging into Gaster themselves, so why is it bad if Frisk in particular is doing the same? Interesting.]
well jeez. i'm glad you're both okay.
there's probably more to any place than the average person realizes
i was telling chara about some stuff the other day and
i think i really scared them.
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Date: 2016-08-30 03:29 am (UTC)You mean the stuff about how Chara and me aren't constants? We're interchangeable with other versions of ourselves? We're not the only Frisk or the only Chara out there? There's more of us and we're all different in different ways and there's no telling us apart? How there's nothing that makes us special at all compared to others that might be like us?
Yeah. I'd say that scared them a lot.
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Date: 2016-08-30 03:59 am (UTC)[Of course they'd tell Frisk. And of course it would still be resonating with both of them. Isn't this exactly how he's been about Papyrus? Thinking of himself as the "wrong Sans" and never bothering to examine the effect that might have on others. On Papyrus, especially. He thinks maybe that whole thing affected Papyrus a lot more than his brother has been letting on.]
i didn't mean it...quite like that.
but i really just shouldn't have said anything
i'm sorry.
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Date: 2016-08-30 04:08 am (UTC)I didn't mean it like that either. But they think so little of themself already. That's why they keep running away. They think we're all better off without them.
[Can they blame them, really? Not exactly. Not when they were looking into something so horrifically similar for the "wrong reasons," right?]
I think we might be the only two from the same time. But I guess we're not from your time, are we?
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Date: 2016-08-30 04:26 am (UTC)i wasn't thinking
they were asking about how papyrus and i are different and it just sort of came up.
[Just sort of came up. That was his excuse with Max, too. He can't be like this anymore. He feels like he's got a bit of solid ground beneath his feet again, so he has to use that. Has to go back to being more careful. More careful about what he says. Not saying anything.]
[Or...well. That's part of the problem as well. Either way--careful.]
you're not from the same point in time as me
aside from that, i don't know.
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Date: 2016-08-30 04:41 am (UTC)[He doesn't need this right now. This isn't what they even meant to talk to him about. They're not really sure what they meant to talk to him about at all, other than to simply come clean about the fact that they were in his room. Which he probably already knows. Definitely already knew based on the way he responded to them.]
Sorry. I just wanted to let you know. And I'm sorry for us going into your room like that.
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Date: 2016-08-30 04:48 am (UTC)but you know, it's not so bad.
it's better than none of you being here at all.
[That was a pretty lonely time, even if it only lasted a few months.]
and it's okay, seriously.
i'm not mad.
like i said, i sort of knew it would happen eventually.
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Date: 2016-08-30 04:56 am (UTC)[Just a little bit. Not by much.]
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:03 am (UTC)you've both always been curious.
[Sometimes too much for their own good.]
kind of an odd way to pass the time, but hey
whatever works.
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:14 am (UTC)Do you guys always have an open-door policy or something?
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:32 am (UTC)[Except for Sans.]
i dunno, i mean. robberies don't happen all that much, since everyone pretty much knows each other. and if someone's gonna just walk into your house randomly it's usually cause they're a friend, so.
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:40 am (UTC)[Monsters are just like that. Inherently good, and kind. And they...
They don't deserve to live among them. Never did. Never should have. But this is exactly what they wanted to erase by talking to him about this. That feeling of not belonging.]
Most of the people we met are friends anyway.
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:47 am (UTC)or at least a good way to troll some people.
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:54 am (UTC)Sans?
Would there be a way to keep a picture of us in Wonderland, in the same way you can keep the picture of the people you don't want to forget? So that there's no way for anything to touch it.
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Date: 2016-08-30 06:02 am (UTC)no, i'm sorry.
the way that happens is...
it's kind of a combination of a few complicated science things
there's this device that someone made once, and some other stuff
but uh
none of it can be replicated here
but maybe...there's that guy doing the photo album thing, right?
all of our stuff disappears when we go home
but stuff like that, that's shared ends up sticking around
as long as someone is here to remember, theoretically you could just
kind of pass a picture or a photo album around?
so that it's always moving and won't disappear when the person does
but that's not quite the same thing.
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Date: 2016-08-30 06:07 am (UTC)In case anything happens. It would make it harder if stuff was
If I couldn't just disappear.
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Date: 2016-08-30 07:44 am (UTC)yeah, i understand.
i dunno, kid
i think the best we can do is remember for each other.
it makes what harder, though?
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Date: 2016-08-30 05:10 pm (UTC)I keep trying to remember. It was sort of my responsibility to keep people safe at home. But I can't do that here can I
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Date: 2016-08-31 03:37 am (UTC)it doesn't have to be your responsibility here
i think wonderland's just more powerful than all of us.
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Date: 2016-08-31 03:50 am (UTC)But it still feels like I should be doing a better job of this. I don't even know how to lose someone if I wasn't the one to kill them.
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Date: 2016-08-31 04:06 am (UTC)having lost undyne and asriel
how does it feel?
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Date: 2016-08-31 04:14 am (UTC)Does he know what he's asking?
The response comes in stutters, carefully typed out over a period of about ten to fifteen minutes. Painstaking, slow. Double-checking for errors. Trying to make it...palatable. Acceptable. Not inconvenient.]
* You struggle.
* Nothing happened.
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Date: 2016-08-31 04:16 am (UTC)Because I'm not trying hard enough. That's how it feels.
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