[He knew what he was asking. And he expected this answer. Expected the harshness and desperate frustration.]
[It strikes him, not for the first time, that he and Frisk are pretty similar. Or that maybe a past version of himself and Frisk are similar. He tried so damn hard to save Gaster, to roll everything back to how it was and fix everything. He was the only one who remembered. The one with the "special power," so to speak. And it amounted to nothing. None of it mattered. It was like trying to change one of the fundamental laws of the universe. It doesn't even really come down to personal failings and shortcomings. It comes down to the fact that some things just absolutely cannot be changed.]
i get it
it's a horrible feeling.
but you do realize that it's not actually your fault, right?
that it's just a feeling?
though knowing doesn't actually help all that much
feelings like that are kinda irrational
you just sort of...feel them. regardless of whether they're true or not
alphys has this theory
about a sort of...tiered structure to reality?
like a big cake
because everything with any sort of power has to bend to something with more power
so monsters are on the bottom
you, chara, and the both of you as the anomaly are somewhere in the middle
and wonderland is on top
although that's slightly inaccurate
you'd need an infinite cake
because there's always going to be something out there with more power
forces we can't see or understand
there might be something beyond wonderland, controlling it in some way
but we'll likely never know what it is
and it doesn't matter, because wonderland itself controls us
trumps any sort of power or determination we might have
and, yanno
that's not exactly a pleasant thought and it's probably kind of scary
but it does mean that the stuff that happens to us here isn't out fault
that it's just beyond our control
it's just wonderland being overpowering and capricious
but, uh, then again
that probably isn't very helpful
i'm already used to this sort of thing
i wish i could give you advice on how to get used to it
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Date: 2016-08-31 04:56 am (UTC)[It strikes him, not for the first time, that he and Frisk are pretty similar. Or that maybe a past version of himself and Frisk are similar. He tried so damn hard to save Gaster, to roll everything back to how it was and fix everything. He was the only one who remembered. The one with the "special power," so to speak. And it amounted to nothing. None of it mattered. It was like trying to change one of the fundamental laws of the universe. It doesn't even really come down to personal failings and shortcomings. It comes down to the fact that some things just absolutely cannot be changed.]
i get it
it's a horrible feeling.
but you do realize that it's not actually your fault, right?
that it's just a feeling?
though knowing doesn't actually help all that much
feelings like that are kinda irrational
you just sort of...feel them. regardless of whether they're true or not
alphys has this theory
about a sort of...tiered structure to reality?
like a big cake
because everything with any sort of power has to bend to something with more power
so monsters are on the bottom
you, chara, and the both of you as the anomaly are somewhere in the middle
and wonderland is on top
although that's slightly inaccurate
you'd need an infinite cake
because there's always going to be something out there with more power
forces we can't see or understand
there might be something beyond wonderland, controlling it in some way
but we'll likely never know what it is
and it doesn't matter, because wonderland itself controls us
trumps any sort of power or determination we might have
and, yanno
that's not exactly a pleasant thought and it's probably kind of scary
but it does mean that the stuff that happens to us here isn't out fault
that it's just beyond our control
it's just wonderland being overpowering and capricious
but, uh, then again
that probably isn't very helpful
i'm already used to this sort of thing
i wish i could give you advice on how to get used to it
or at least how to make the best of it.
i'm sorry, frisk.