[Everyone has a limit. A breaking point. Sans really, really doesn't want his brother to find his. The worst part is that if anything can break him, it's Wonderland.]
[Hell, finding out his brother died again and he couldn't stop it might be enough. Sans doesn't want to tell him. It'd be better for everyone if he just didn't tell him, right? But he's...he's supposed to be honest. He said he'd be honest. Why is it so fucking hard?]
[He lets out a shaky little sigh when Papyrus says that he survived.]
glad you made out okay.
[Then he asks, and Sans feels his soul sink. He has to tell him. If he's asking directly like this, then he can't just skirt around it and dodge, right? Even if it would be better. It'd be better if Papyrus didn't have to know. Is it really better to be honest about every little thing?]
i...uh...
[And now he's remembering it, and that's even worse. The cave, the look on Max's face, debris falling from the ceiling with every shake and shudder. Her holding up the phone.]
i found someone in the caves. didn't realize it at first, but they were indoctrinated.
[Won't say her name. He's not sure if Papyrus even knows Max, but he doesn't want to cause unnecessary tension.]
tried to talk them outta it, but...
[She'd run and he'd followed. He'd just wanted to stop her, but something...went wrong. He can't quite remember. Breaking bones, blood, using whatever he had left to try and heal her.]
[He doesn't even know if she survived or not.]
[His self-control falters. His grip on his brother tightens.]
i'm sorry. papyrus, i'm...so sorry. i'm sorry.
[Sorry for not being strong enough, sorry for letting it come out like this, sorry for being such a worthless goddamn brother.]
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[Everyone has a limit. A breaking point. Sans really, really doesn't want his brother to find his. The worst part is that if anything can break him, it's Wonderland.]
[Hell, finding out his brother died again and he couldn't stop it might be enough. Sans doesn't want to tell him. It'd be better for everyone if he just didn't tell him, right? But he's...he's supposed to be honest. He said he'd be honest. Why is it so fucking hard?]
[He lets out a shaky little sigh when Papyrus says that he survived.]
glad you made out okay.
[Then he asks, and Sans feels his soul sink. He has to tell him. If he's asking directly like this, then he can't just skirt around it and dodge, right? Even if it would be better. It'd be better if Papyrus didn't have to know. Is it really better to be honest about every little thing?]
i...uh...
[And now he's remembering it, and that's even worse. The cave, the look on Max's face, debris falling from the ceiling with every shake and shudder. Her holding up the phone.]
i found someone in the caves. didn't realize it at first, but they were indoctrinated.
[Won't say her name. He's not sure if Papyrus even knows Max, but he doesn't want to cause unnecessary tension.]
tried to talk them outta it, but...
[She'd run and he'd followed. He'd just wanted to stop her, but something...went wrong. He can't quite remember. Breaking bones, blood, using whatever he had left to try and heal her.]
[He doesn't even know if she survived or not.]
[His self-control falters. His grip on his brother tightens.]
i'm sorry. papyrus, i'm...so sorry. i'm sorry.
[Sorry for not being strong enough, sorry for letting it come out like this, sorry for being such a worthless goddamn brother.]