[Papyrus lets out a quick breath. That's right, Sans also is a part of Shepard's guard team, as a sort of an escort. How could he forget about that? He must have been trying hard too.
He cranes his head for just a moment to find and hold onto Sans's free hand with his own before lowering it again.]
I THINK YOU DO PLENTY OF GOOD. AND...I KNOW THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO DO MORE GOOD, TOO. YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF.
[Like he's one to talk right now.
He tries to let Sans's words really sink in. This is not his fault. This is Wonderland's fault, not his. Wonderland set out to ruin as many peoples' lives as possible and succeeded. Why does he still feel so awful, though?]
I JUST...I DIDN'T WANT THE PAST FEW DAYS TO END UP SO...HORRENDOUS. THERE COULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH DONE TO PREVENT EVERYTHING AND I NEEDED TO DO MORE, AND...
[He stops abruptly and takes in a deep breath. Right. Okay. Don't get mad at yourself, Papyrus.]
OKAY, BROTHER. I WILL CHANNEL MY ANGER AT WONDERLAND INSTEAD. IT'S LIKE YOU SAID, IT'S THE ONE THAT PUT US ALL INTO THIS MESS. I'LL JUST NEED TO TRY HARDER NEXT TIME.
[He's silent for a little while longer, trying to process what to say next.]
AFTER WE HAD TO MOVE TO A SAFER PART OF THE CAVE BECAUSE OF THAT CAVE-IN...I COULDN'T HELP BUT STILL TRY TO TRACK YOU DOWN AGAIN, BROTHER. E-EVEN THOUGH I REALLY SHOULD HAVE BEEN OUT THERE, TRYING TO FIND AND SAVE ANYONE THAT WASN'T INDOCTRINATED YET. IT WAS LIKE...I HAD TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU WERE STILL SAFE, YOU KNOW?? BUT, TO ABANDON MY ROUTINE LIKE THAT...TO CAST AWAY EVERYONE ELSE THAT COULD HAVE BEEN IN DANGER...I...I DIDN'T MEAN TO CAST THEM ASIDE EITHER. I REALLY, REALLY DIDN'T...
[It kind of felt like he was trying to solve the train puzzle: drop everything to save one life or continue on in order to save many lives? Either one of the outcomes didn't sound very pleasing, as that would mean that the opposite party would have to suffer.]
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He cranes his head for just a moment to find and hold onto Sans's free hand with his own before lowering it again.]
I THINK YOU DO PLENTY OF GOOD. AND...I KNOW THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO DO MORE GOOD, TOO. YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF.
[Like he's one to talk right now.
He tries to let Sans's words really sink in. This is not his fault. This is Wonderland's fault, not his. Wonderland set out to ruin as many peoples' lives as possible and succeeded. Why does he still feel so awful, though?]
I JUST...I DIDN'T WANT THE PAST FEW DAYS TO END UP SO...HORRENDOUS. THERE COULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH DONE TO PREVENT EVERYTHING AND I NEEDED TO DO MORE, AND...
[He stops abruptly and takes in a deep breath. Right. Okay. Don't get mad at yourself, Papyrus.]
OKAY, BROTHER. I WILL CHANNEL MY ANGER AT WONDERLAND INSTEAD. IT'S LIKE YOU SAID, IT'S THE ONE THAT PUT US ALL INTO THIS MESS. I'LL JUST NEED TO TRY HARDER NEXT TIME.
[He's silent for a little while longer, trying to process what to say next.]
AFTER WE HAD TO MOVE TO A SAFER PART OF THE CAVE BECAUSE OF THAT CAVE-IN...I COULDN'T HELP BUT STILL TRY TO TRACK YOU DOWN AGAIN, BROTHER. E-EVEN THOUGH I REALLY SHOULD HAVE BEEN OUT THERE, TRYING TO FIND AND SAVE ANYONE THAT WASN'T INDOCTRINATED YET. IT WAS LIKE...I HAD TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU WERE STILL SAFE, YOU KNOW?? BUT, TO ABANDON MY ROUTINE LIKE THAT...TO CAST AWAY EVERYONE ELSE THAT COULD HAVE BEEN IN DANGER...I...I DIDN'T MEAN TO CAST THEM ASIDE EITHER. I REALLY, REALLY DIDN'T...
[It kind of felt like he was trying to solve the train puzzle: drop everything to save one life or continue on in order to save many lives? Either one of the outcomes didn't sound very pleasing, as that would mean that the opposite party would have to suffer.]