[Papyrus follows suit and leans into Sans, silently nodding. He doesn't move for a while as he concentrates on his own thoughts. It's not like he expected all of the self doubt to go away in a snap, but he was kind of hoping that a change of scenery would at least make his mind stop buzzing. At least now, he's not alone.
...maybe talking about it might help out? It's worth a shot, at least. Now is exactly NOT the time to bottle things up.]
...AS SOON AS SHEPARD TOLD US ABOUT THAT SHIP, I MADE A PACT TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD PROTECT EVERYONE WE KNOW FROM THIS EVENT. I THOUGHT THAT IF I MADE SURE THAT EVERYONE WAS IN A SAFE SPOT, OR IF ANYONE WAS IN MORTAL DANGER, I WOULD SWOOP IN AND RESCUE THEM. I...WANTED TO BE A LEADER AND PROTECT EVERYONE. I MEAN, I HAD DONE THAT ALREADY FOR ALMOST A YEAR BACK AT HOME!!
[He starts wringing one of his hands with his slacks, as if that squeezing the life out of it will somehow make things better.]
BUT...THEN ASRIEL AND METTATON BOTH BECAME INDOCTRINATED, AND...I DIDN'T JUST WANT TO ABANDON THEM OR ANYTHING, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I STILL NEEDED TO PROTECT EVERYONE THAT HADN'T TURNED AND, AND THEN EVERYTHING JUST MADE A TURN FOR THE WORSE ON THAT LAST DAY, AND I...COULDN'T DO IT. I...I DON'T THINK I WAS ABLE TO PROTECT ANYONE. I NEEDED TO DO THAT, AND I COULDN'T. I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO KEEP EVERYONE AWAY AND SAFE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
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Date: 2018-05-12 03:38 am (UTC)...maybe talking about it might help out? It's worth a shot, at least. Now is exactly NOT the time to bottle things up.]
...AS SOON AS SHEPARD TOLD US ABOUT THAT SHIP, I MADE A PACT TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD PROTECT EVERYONE WE KNOW FROM THIS EVENT. I THOUGHT THAT IF I MADE SURE THAT EVERYONE WAS IN A SAFE SPOT, OR IF ANYONE WAS IN MORTAL DANGER, I WOULD SWOOP IN AND RESCUE THEM. I...WANTED TO BE A LEADER AND PROTECT EVERYONE. I MEAN, I HAD DONE THAT ALREADY FOR ALMOST A YEAR BACK AT HOME!!
[He starts wringing one of his hands with his slacks, as if that squeezing the life out of it will somehow make things better.]
BUT...THEN ASRIEL AND METTATON BOTH BECAME INDOCTRINATED, AND...I DIDN'T JUST WANT TO ABANDON THEM OR ANYTHING, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I STILL NEEDED TO PROTECT EVERYONE THAT HADN'T TURNED AND, AND THEN EVERYTHING JUST MADE A TURN FOR THE WORSE ON THAT LAST DAY, AND I...COULDN'T DO IT. I...I DON'T THINK I WAS ABLE TO PROTECT ANYONE. I NEEDED TO DO THAT, AND I COULDN'T. I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO KEEP EVERYONE AWAY AND SAFE IN THE FIRST PLACE.